James here,

My goodness..school ended for you guys...darn lucky..my school is all the way to spm...darn boring..but my friends and i ain't gonna go to school anyway..hehe..i already ponteng...65 over days...hahah..thanks to jamming...smoking and other stuff...which i ain't proud of..in my whole secondary life i have been to 3 schools...1. SMK SMART Putrajaya 1..2 ASS EMM KAY..SEA PORT...AND NOW Kolej Sultan Abdul Hamid...Putrajaya school was the lamest...of school i have been to..never had any good memories..there.. i mean..in my class i was the only indian there and the other malays..ganged on me and bullied me and teased me...with all kinds of low de grading names...which i can't really forget about..i have done my part in forgiving them but the problem is..it is not so easy to forget..the names they use to verbally abuse me...simply uncivillized.....not only that i was bashed up by a goup of fanatics..who were so into islam..that when they knew i was christian they just beat the shit out of me...bullshit crap..holy muslims...i was short at the time and only form 1....a fews week later i saw this group of them hanging with a group of girls....we all know wat happeneed next..la..

After a year my parents..decided that i was receiving enough abuse at school..so they decided to move me back to pj...then obviously the only school i could go to turned out to be the best school i had ever been to..in terms of repairing the scars of my life.

Before moving to this school i hated the Malay...i thought that they are so..low..without dignity..disgusting..dishonest..fat and ugly..with icky guiy slime coming out of their noses...but then i met naif..farouq..ck..jee ho..harmeet..nandha..ari tarzan.. arumugam...sam... wun.. kennth...mardiana..shahira..carmen..sandiya..arvin..marc..the blady fool..kanthan LINGGI...sara..vaishi...venuga..syazwan...omar..anuar...adib..daniel...aizuddin..mishan..chan..suresh...yeo bee harn..lee shuy yen..pei yin..anginj lee...shi meng..nelza...tanker...rozman..aiman..al amin..hazman..harris..nuwan..jerrie..thiva kannan..selvin..sim..all those wonderfull ppl..la..that..really made a difference in my life....including wonderfull teacher..pn kong..amy..zahir..and so on..

Naif and farouq..taught me that..not all malays are evil beings...only those screwed up bargers who..don really know the meaning of life...the latter were real... I MEAN REAL FRIENDS THAT I EVER HAD..NEVER IN THE WORLD WOULD I TRADE THEM..FOR ANYTHING ELSE...not even a 1969 gibsons les paul guitar you know what i mean..those bunch of assholes..really made me feel accepted..like i had found the part of me that i was missing and it was 'REAL GOOD FRIENDS'...AND everytime we went out sure there'd be teasin..but it was all for the joke..and nothing else matters...but still when i was in that school..i felt lost...my grades were low..and i still had something missing in me...i didn't feel whole..like my whole being was under a thick veil..and i needed to break free...

I was never good in anything...i was the knida of guy who would always say yes for things i didn't even want to do..i would never let my way stand...but only cared for others..i would never say no..directly..or even tried to hurt ppl's feelings ..i was scared to lose friends..because i didn't want to lose that part of myself again..i was always trying to be funny..or be nice..just to let others be pleased with me...and never was me feeling good about myself...

When i say i was never good in anything...i seriouly meant it.....harmeet and ck were good at chicks..naif he is a smart ass but doesn't know it..farouq...he was everyones teddy bear...even if i wa just good in football,...harmeet and ck were better..studies..yeah..i was only good in that and that was like just average..and marc..real good in business..everyone had something to define themselves but not me..linggi..now he is a real comedian..his jokes are funny funny..i mean betting@linggi.com...lolzz..jerrie..well he had his moves and stuff going on for him..but i had nothing..nothing to really define me except me extreme height..which is not even extreme because the average height in America and Europe is 6ft..so anyway i was stil missing something..

Then i moved to Sultan Abdul Hamid College..this is where i found myself..i found something that i had a passion for..and it was and is MUSIC....i mean drums just took me 4 days to learn..bass that was heaps easy..simply bass..is like so damn easy..guitar..hmm..that is easy too but not that easy if you really focus on it...i too thought that guitar is so damn easy and you can't be recogniseD..but after going to music school...i realised that learning the guitar is hard..its not as easy as you think..to learn guitar you GOTTA HAVE IT IN YOU.. its that defining X FACTOR that you must be born with...the road in becoming a performer is not that easy...i mean i have caused more trouble to my parents...in this 1 year than in comparisson to other years..i finally hd done something i wanted to do and not what my friends or parents want me to be..

I HAVE somany good friends in this school also...in the likes of mahendran...faris..kavin..maarvin..cheryl...betsy..jun..amirah...azmirul..pawaih..syed alip..ariff yasser, yasser...izwan...zul...faez..farriss part 2..shanmugam...akaed carbon 14....wan ikan..
je shern...gary..loots... kang..tan..ashwin..vincent..and so many more..most of them either play guitar bass drums or strong vocals...hehe...anyway back to me..


I for the first time got screwed by the school..for missing so many days....then my father screwed me and my mum screwed me...for the first time i'm doing my theng...you know what i mean..its like i'm whole again..i have found the path that i want to follow..and be agood example to ppl and not project the image of a wasted over dosed rocker...rock in Malaysia is dead beause nobody really sits down and think about good songs to write...all they do is just mix the proggression here and there..and you have a good song..well making music is not straight forward..if you have genuine passion for you want to do..then the music wiill be awesome...example metallica..their music is original because..they really sit down and play all day..just to find that perfect solo or riff...not like greenday or..other such bands..simple plan..now thats a rock joke right there...playing with chords..hmm..lousy music man...another good pioneer of good rock music is incubus...now i don really like incubus..but...anyway..what they are doing is original..another good modern new age metal band is static x...

So if you ask me what i miss during school...its a short simple answer..I MISSED BEING ME...
whatelse that comes along the way is that i miss my real good friends who understands my feelings..and real good teachers..who were passionate and dedicated in their teachings...i also missed the good times...that we had shared..and the sad times...now

After SPM letS make more good memories..HEHEHEHEHEHE....SO SEE YOU GUYS AFTER SPM...

-PEACE-